Fluctuating Moods

I seem to have contracted some form of illness so am not doing great at the moment. This is having an effect on my mood in that one minute I'm up and the next I'm down.

Take today for example. It started off great (despite the really persistant rain), I went into the Sportmittelschule and met two different classes. They were both really keen, seemed to like my presentation of pictures about my life and asked loads of questions. Both asked "How old are you?" and "Do you have a boyfriend?" so they're typical teenagers I guess. After that there was a buffet thing in the staff room because there had been a few teachers with birthdays and I chatted with people and it was nice.

Then I went into town in the continuing rain to try and open a bank account. Already my mood was dipping. I made an appointment and had an hour to kill so did the German thing and went for coffee and cake. A slightly awkward exchange with the waiter where I failed to properly understand that it was table service (but you still had to stand at the counter to order cake, which is probably why I was confused) made me feel foolish and self conscious so mood dropped another point. Eating delicious cake and sitting quietly for a bit brought it back up again, as did a very speedy and successful bank appointment where I managed to open an account in about 15 minutes.

After noticing that 'Rise of the Planet of the Apes' was showing in an hour I decided to wander around the shops for a bit and then see that. It was lonely and dull and I wasn't really sure what I was doing. I was then the only person in the entire cinema until three other people showed up five minutes before it started. The film was really good but I think some of the camera shots made me motion sick and combined with current illness and tiredness I came out of the cinema feeling awful.

I dragged myself home and collapsed on my bed feeling pretty sorry for myself but a brief Skype conversation picked me up again so I went to find some food. In the process I ended up talking to my flatmates and we had a proper conversation and then ate food together. They also gave me herbal tea to help my cough/general illness. So now I'm feeling pretty good and less lonely.

I guess the whole point of this post was to say that it's not always roses. I never expected it to be to be honest but today has taught me that I can indeed cope and things will always get better. I will try to remember this in the coming months.

Tschuss!